Hi - Douglas Skelton coming to you from Scotland.
I'm in the process of moving house at the moment. That means I'm surrounded by boxes, bubble wrap and packing tape.
I have so far resisted the urge to build a fort.
Thank you 'Friends' for that thought.
I've been here for 15/16 years. A lot has happened in that time and packing things away can often be a saunter down that lane we call memory.
As most people do when moving I've been playing what we in Scotland know as Keep or Chuck.
It's when you have to decide if an item is worth hanging onto or if you should send it to dump.
I've disposed of a fair amount of stuff and more will go. I've handed over old bits of furniture to be given a new lease of life before they go to charity. I've trashed some that were beyond repair. Most of my rugs will be picked up by the local council. Years of dogs, cats and, it has to be said, me have taken their toll.
But it's when you go through drawers and shelves and pockets that you find you have entered into a new world - the world of forgotten things. Little items that are not gone, merely left, stored, placed, sitting sometimes in plain sight and yet still unseen.
Until you pick them up.
And you remember.
They are generally inconsequential, sometimes even everyday, but they carry with them memories like dust which, as you hold them, come back as if through osmosis. These forgotten things can represent a moment in time that you cherish, a place that you haven't seen for too long, a face no longer visible, a voice no longer heard.
A pen, given on a milestone birthday by someone who was special then and is special now, clipped in the inside pocket of an old suit and long since dry.
A small hip flask, a gift never used, still in its box, but it reminds you of the day it was handed to you by the giver with whom you have long since lost contact.
A book, sitting on a shelf among others, its spine cracked and frayed, its pages dog-eared and loose. It was well-loved, well-read, and well-worn by someone who will never read again.
A concert programme brings back the excitement of seeing composer Jerry Goldsmith in Glasgow. A big deal for me.
A paw print in ink of a dog that has long since crossed the bridge.
And books from my own childhood that have been unnoticed on shelves all this time and never taken down in all these years. My copy of Tom Sawyer. A Pictorial History of World Exploration. My Ed McBain collection, some editions dating back to the 60s. Alistair Maclean. Jack London. Ian Fleming. All monuments to a young boy reading in his room and wishing he could be like them.
And more. Ornaments. Old photographs. A poker chip that came from who knows where but which, for some reason, I keep on my desk.
They are all time machines transpporting me across the years to when life was simpler, or better, or happier.
I have a friend who says that as a matter of course if she has not used, touched or worn something for six months it goes.
I can understand that ethos but there is something within me that cannot part with these and other items, so they are packed away and will find a new home with me.
The world of these forgotten things is one that I will carry until I am part of it.
Douglas, of course you have to keep the world of forgotten things. If old bits of residue are so loaded with personal meaning and memories, then let us keep them. Otherwise, how can we afford to forget who we were, either as writers or as just plain folks? In the past few years I have obtained several books, long out of print, that were intensely meaningful to me during my formative years. Looking into them now, I sense next to me that girl of long ago, so scared and bewildered and ambitious. She still has things to say to me.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Anna, much of it will come with me, even the poker chip!
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